I hadn’t heard this Queen song for a long time until today.
When it first was released it was so incredibly poignant and obviously reflected Freddie Mercury’s own life.
When I was younger a friend’s elder sister was a massive Queen fan so I had heard about the rumours of his diagnosis with Aids long before it hit the music press and made national headlines.
For me the song is typically Queen in style, but the sense of introspection in the lyrics is humbling.
Sando never appeared to be a big fan of Queen but he certainly embodied the sentiment of the title, before and after his brain tumour diagnosis.
Life is never easy for anyone and there are undoubtedly periods of frustration and annoyance for many different reasons.
He always seemed to express his immediate sense of frustration, with a frown and forthright dialogue, then straighten up his tall frame, fix his often impish smile, and carry on.
I was – probably still am – much more of the the opposite – I have an immediate sense of anger and then simply carry on being angry.
In Sando’s presence, it was far easier to be persuaded to lose the anger, and that together we could, and would, just carry on.
His passing leaves us feeling alone and with that it is easy to ‘stay’ angry, to be lost in the selfish realisation that we have to carry on by ourselves now.
As the words of the chorus say:
Inside my heart is breaking
My makeup may be flaking
But this is when our memory of Sando must come to the fore, and remember that his . . .
. . . smile, still, stays on